Ahh hello everyone! I hope you're all doing well! My deviantart is as dead as last time I got here lmao I never update or come here please forgive me;;
I honestly just kinda need to rant a bit about school and like friendship and all that jazz;; This is gonna be really fuckin cheesy and if you've already graduated I'm sure you'll think I'm being a huge baby and I'll admit that I am haha
Today I graduated from elementary school (I'm 15 years old I'll turn 16 by August idk man every school system is different) and my mood swings are terrible, hahaha. I didn't cry at the graduation but I've been crying my eyes out every now and then since I got home, at the same time I'm feeling happy and relieved.
I'm gonna miss everyone so much, you know? Today I've spent ten years with most of the people in my (former) class, and I still remember the very first day of school when we all sat in a circle glancing at each other shyly but mainly staring at the floor quietly, the teacher asking us to speak our names one by one. We've all become such good friends and now I guess it's time to go separate ways. We're all gonna go to different schools or different classes, move to different cities and so on.
I'll never be able to chuckle to myself on my way to school knowing that I'll get to see everyone smiling and to have a good time with the gang all together, even if I'm probably gonna make new friends it's never gonna be the same, I don't want to leave the ones I've already got omg fuck everything;;;
I was about to start crying when I hugged one of my best friends Simon today but I managed to hold back, haha. I really didn't think I'd cry this much about him or the others. We're still gonna see each other of course, this summer we're gonna play laser tag together like we did on our class trip last week and go to the beach and stuff but hhhhh you know what I mean it's never ever gonna be the same I'm being such a child;;; I love them all so very much.
Also at the same time that I really don't want to, I look forward to starting high school (gymnasiet in Sweden). I chose socialistics or whatever you call it in English as my main studies. I was gonna choose media and arts, but I changed my mind. Even if I think that animation, concept and art is what I'd like to work with when I grow up and it's something that I really love, I will not choose it as my main focus in school just yet but to continue learning and developing in my spare time and perhaps take separate classes.
I will keep doing what I enjoy most and I hope you will choose to do so as well, no matter what people say. Do what makes you happy, because it's your life, your time, your dreams.
Also speaking of school - I will go to the same school as most of my friends even if we're in different classes, so at least I'll get to see them walk by or something, as much as that is good enough for me. Now I'll go back to crying and I hope that you'll all have an absolutely wonderful summer.
Good luck in the future, follow and fight for dreams no matter what. Cherish the friends and loved ones you've got and keep in touch!! You are so loved and I believe in you. Best of wishes to all of you!!